Today is the day...

The day we get to bring home the new little pup! I can't wait...she got her last deworming shots and the vet says she is good to come home now! We are driving to bountiful to pick up the new family member who will be know as little miss LOLA tonight after carl gets home from work!!!! YAY i can't wait for everyone to meet her!

P.S. I wil be posting loads of pictures now that i have found my usb cable that has been lost since we moved into our house!

Struggles

Today has not been the best day...i feel like the people i thought were my friends just don't care anymore...i hate that people use me being married as an excuse to not hang out with me....i feel like now that i stand up for myself and not let people walk all over me that now those exact same people who told me that i needed to voice my feeling more and stand up for myself are now the ones who are getting mad that i am putting my feelings out there and totally taking advantage of the things they know hurt...is there any win win in this? I feel like some of the most important people that were in my life just don't care anymore...I hate that i let what people say affect me soooo much! I hate that ALL of the friends i thought would be there through the hardest times of my life have just given up....is there something wrong with me why are these people who say they are my "best friends" acting like they don't even care...I'm so hurt but three people that meant sooooo much to me. Why do people say things they know will hurt you....why do they get mad because you tell them your feelings....I don't understand how you can come out and say something to someone that you know is hurting them...This whole situation has made me realize i need to reevaluate some things.