Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Thanksgiving!

I am so excited for Thanksgiving tomorrow! I love all the Thanksgiving food that comes with the holiday! I just wanted to write a post all about the things I am sooo very grateful for this year so here goes...The baby boy in my belly only 79 days or less!
  • My amazing husband
  • My parents, they are the most caring amazing people and I can't wait to see them with Gavin
  • Having a nice warm house to call home
  • My in laws...all of them they are so great! My sister in laws have given me so many baby things and tons of advice!!
  • My great friends even if we don't talk or see each other as much as we could!
  • My job
  • The doctors that we have worked with (most of them at least)
  • Having food on our table
  • Money to buy the things we need
  • Family that supports us
  • My amazing Grandparents
  • Mashed potatoes!!!!
  • Good health

Oh and Im sure there are sooo many more things....I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and they are stuffed by the end of the day!! I know baby Gavin and I will be for sure!!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I worry...it's my nature...

Sometimes I worry about thing way to much...I was so worried I wouldn't be able to get pregnant after I did I worried constantly that something terrible would go wrong with the baby. I seem to always find the negative in every situation and focus in on that. It's pretty sad. When we went in for our 20 week appointment we found out that the baby had some fluid around his heart and the doctors immediately freaked us out telling us their was a 70% chance our baby would be born with down syndrome or another type of chromosomal disorder and 30% chance that it very well could be nothing at all and it would go away before he was born or during birth. They told us that we needed to have an amino centesis done that day to see what kind of disorder he would have. (yes they made it seem like for sure he had something wrong with him) The rest of that day I couldn't help but think we were going to have a baby with a chromosomal disorder and I thought all the negative thoughts I could even though deep down in my heart I knew that everything was going to be ok. Which in the end it was his fluid has gone down a great deal from what it was 7 weeks ago when we saw the Cardiologist the first time and at our last appointment on Friday he told us he felt great about it and that he would not be seeing us back! I feel like I focused on all of the negative things in this situation. Instead of thinking about how loved he would be no matter what happened in the end and that how lucky I am that I can even carry my OWN baby. I feel like sometimes I miss out on great things because I'm stuck looking and thinking about the negatives in life. Im going to make a new goal for myself starting now. Im going to stop concentrating on the negative and more on the positive things in my life!